If you haven't met me yet, I'm Deja. A 35-year old artist and mom to a 4 year old boy. Becoming a mother was never anything I had planned or even dreamed about. It was a huge surprise and life changer that I am beyond grateful for. But it wasn't easy at first. In fact, it was absolutely terrifying and exhausting. At the time, all of my family lived out of state or at least 2 hours away, so it was just me most of the time and I had some help from my son's dad. But it didn't feel enough. It was overwhelming.
I know not a lot of moms can relate to me. Especially those who have help from husbands, parents, siblings or nannies. But I didn't have that kind of help most of the time and I had to focus on not only raising a son, but growing a business from home because when my son was born, I also made the decision to quit my full-time job and be with my son. This was not a popular decision among my family which led me to move in with my sister, boyfriend and their 3 kids. I went from a cozy apartment to a house with 7 people. It was not an easy adjustment because I still didn't allow others to help me, I had trust issues and my son was very attached to me and I honored that.
Even 1 year later, I still didn't have a grip on my new life. I was very protective of my son and had a very hard time letting others watch him which was probably the reason I was so worn out. It felt like every time I went to shower or take a bath, my son would cry. I even tried to keep him in his little rocker next to my bathtub and he would still cry. This new life, the hormones, led to post-partum depression and many tears. Luckily, I came out of that on my own.
I'm Deja. I will be sharing personal stories of manifestation and more.